A Quarantine Note-to-self

For over a month we are isolated in the meeting hall which is not a "meeting" hall anymore, at least for now. All sisters living along with me have been evacuated in the meeting hall of a local church. Usually every Lord's day I saw saints come over to meet, but now nobody is allowed to come. As long as we stay inside our home, we're safe. I used to love solitude, to appreciate my lone time, but now, it turns out to be misery. Well, this time is hard for everyone.

I can see from my Presenly streaks that there are still some things worth thanksgiving everyday. Well, I can't say that I am grateful because I have a lot spare time by staying at home while in fact, sfh doubles in both time and tasks. I would rather attend a two-hour class than attend this 24/7 virtual class mentally. It's somehow exhausting but there are still, there are, things worth being grateful for. Here's the things. I learn making a font out of my own handwriting. I found out the easiest way to make pie crust. SO easy: 10 tbs of flour, 5 tsp of butter, and 2 tsp of condensed milk. Mix them all at once, you'll get a standard pie dough just like you've always imagined. What an ease! Now that's my second experience of baking. The first one, you know, was on the early quarantine. We baked choco lava. I always thought baking was hard and I could never have myself involved in it. I change: it's quite easy somehow!

I learn that things will not be the same anymore. Even if this pandemic stops, the curve's all flat, we change. I assuredly say this; our mentality changes. I don't know whether it is good or bad or both. I don't like being in this situation. Death occurs everywhere every day. Bad news of people you know to be healthy and cheerful, all such things just kill your joy. I'm sure I don't feel anxious, rather, stupefied. Bu Muslimah the kindest lecturer in my college is diagnosed for stroke. Pak Peter Tanjung is confirmed along with eleven others. I don't have anything to say about this. I think everyone feels it since this pandemic does impact everyone.

As Anna in Frozen 2 is nervous of whether or not things will get back normal but Olaf emphasizes transformation, we shall share the same mind too. It's way too far from normal and it's just worth doubting that this situation will change us forever. So, don't wait for the pandemic to cease to start being productive again. Start today. I've started since the early lock down and I'm still going on starting new pages every day, craving for new experience and new things to learn every day. This fact is like a hard-to-swallow pill, but its bitterness will turn out sweet eventually.

I joined the South California College Conference just yesterday. It was online through YouTube Premiere. Despite so, I was helped with those messages, especially the second message. The banner says "Doing the will of God." I wondered how can I do His will in the midst of this epidemic. I could not go out to contact people. We even go online for church meetings. And all the tasks and exams worn me out. I am toiling. But here's the light:

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Matthew 11:28-30 KJV

I don't need to labor any longer. Just come to Him. He's inviting me to come. He will be my rest. I will rest in Him. 

But what's next? I will take His yoke; that is His will. No rest means no yoke. To do His will requires me to rest in Him beforehand. Anyway, the yoke in here is not for us to carry alone. The Lord seems to say, "Come on, you're toiling. Come and unload your burden. Take this yoke alongside with me. Learn of Me. I will get into you to be your Rest, your Obedience to God's will, even I will be your Satisfaction in doing God's will." Isn't this beautiful?